Yesterday’s post about taking risks made me proud, but later on I realized that there was a big risk that I’d wanted to take this week that I
chickened out decided against at the last moment.
See, there’s a local production of the musical RENT coming up in September and Maureen Johnson is seriously a dream role for me and her songs are actually not totally out of my range! The thing is, I don’t actually have decent control over my voice, unless I’m in the car and no one else is there. (I swear, I can sing, you just haven’t heard it!) So the original plan was to ask around to friends who have some sort of knowledge of singing and the ability to help me learn to control my voice before the auditions came up so I could at least get up there and give it a shot without completely humiliating myself.
I know that I would never actually get the role because the local company’s star performer wants the same role and has the vocal chords for any song, but that doesn’t mean that I couldn’t step up and go for it! Especially since there are some other kick ass roles that I’d be down for.
Unfortunately though, I got a reminder for the auditions THE DAY OF!!! This of course means that I was in no way prepared for an audition, and I decided that it was not worth the pain for both my ego and the director’s ears for me to go down and check it out. Plus, I can’t really afford to not be available during their rehearsal schedule.
One of the reasons that Maureen is such a dream role for me is that she’s a totally over the top political activist (but she’s a little bit terrible at it), in a show that’s making a great statement about a political movement and fighting AIDS. Idinal Menzel is the original actress for the role, and she also happens to play Elfaba in Wicked. Another politically active character I would love to play.
Listening to RENT a bunch lately (even before the audition reminder) I was reminded of how relaxed I have been with my political beliefs lately. I mean, there are some serious problems with our political system and society right now, and most of us just sit back and let it continue because it doesn’t directly affect us. I don’t want to do that anymore.
I don’t mean that I want to go pounding down office doors and storming into politicians’ offices yet, but I do want to start really knowing what kinds of things I can do to help the causes that I believe in. Look out for some information as I find it, if we have similar stances why shouldn’t we work together?